I know how you must feel ,I've been though almost the same thing . The loss of the herd (if thats what it's called) is a sad thing, the loss of all the hard work and hopes is even worse. I'm about 2/3 of the way rebuilt after 5yrs . my hopes are that you two will do better than that . If I can help in anyway let me know. Bob Hendricks Gulfport Ms.